I have tried quitting. In fact the last time i tried, i walked completely away from AA. However within a few hours i was drunk, which i thought was fine. But when i didn't put a drink down for over a week i started to suspect i wasn't just "getting it out of my system." When i show up to work wasted, when i pick up strangers off the street, when i pick fights with the people closest to me, when i can't even control or predict or stop myself from doing these things, i think i have a problem. So i don't want to drink, but each time i've left AA the first thing i do is drink. The truth is, i don't mind going to meetings. I have lots of friends, i love the people, i just don't like being told what to do.