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Originally Posted by darkrunner
(((((Granite)))))
There is nothing wrong with you. Feelings aren't facts - just because you are feeling something, doesn't mean it is true. Just because you feel horrible, doen't mean you are horrible.
Tayquincy, I am so glad you posted what you did. I was thinking the same thing as everyone else - that Granite should find a new T. But you are SO RIGHT to say that we are basing this on one side of the situation, which may not be reality.
Granite, you said:
Maybe working through the fear and the shame is part of your therapy, part of what will help you heal. I've heard so many people here say that working through ruptures has been one of the most healing parts of therapy.
It sounds like it would be incredibly difficult for you, but I really think you should consider going back to see this T, even if it is just one last time. Don't run away from your fears, but face them head on and you may find it very healing and empowering. Trust me, I know it is easier said than done.  |
warning mention of SU thoughts
thanks dark but going back would serve no perpose.i would not be able to talk to her about it at all.i have been going to her for 1year and 4 months and havnt realy been able to talk to her at all.exsept for a handfull of times.she hasnot been able to help me with this .yes i know this is all in my ball park and my fault and all.but this is a reality not a distortion.i have a hard time talking and it is a major problem and i am at a los with how to work with this T around this.i dont know if how i am feeling is a distortion as some are saying but it is really painfull and feel very real to me and is terrifing.no T shoud scare anyone like she scared me and weather she did it intentionally or not i cant go through another session like that.when i left it was so bad all i wanted to do was smash my car into the first biggest tree i saw.Dark it was awfull and i dont want to feel so bad like that again.