thanks dark but going back would serve no perpose.i would not be able to talk to her about it at all.i have been going to her for 1year and 4 months and havnt realy been able to talk to her at all.exsept for a handfull of times.she hasnot been able to help me with this .yes i know this is all in my ball park and my fault and all.but this is a reality not a distortion.i have a hard time talking and it is a major problem and i am at a los with how to work with this T around this.i dont know if how i am feeling is a distortion as some are saying but it is really painfull and feel very real to me and is terrifing.no T shoud scare anyone like she scared me and weather she did it intentionally or not i cant go through another session like that.when i left it was so bad all i wanted to do was smash my car into the first biggest tree i saw.Dark it was awfull and i dont want to feel so bad like that again.