Okay this is going to sound a little ridiculous, but bare with me (and yes you can laugh at my wussyness).
In a few weeks I am going to be buying a new bed and doing over my room. Because of my neglected/poor upbringing this is a HUGE deal for me. I have never owned my OWN bed before. It's always been a second hand bed given by a relative or church, or some wooden boards, currently it's a ranky old mattress on the floor from the salvos.
Well, because of my hypervigilence, one of the many things I get iffy with is the 'under the bed'. Even ensambles with about 2 inches undeneath, when my feet are near it I feel as though someone/thing is going to reach out an arm and grab my leg. When I get my new bed I'm going to have an under the bed again and this is going to be a bit of a deal for me. I know I'm going to get myself worked up while going sleep that someone is under there. I'm getting nervous just thinking about it.
I'm 23 and I still need to block the door, have some sort of lighting, music, I can't have the bed where I can see a mirror or any pictures with faces, the cupboard doors have to be closed, and I can only sleep with my back facing the room and a blanket over the back of my head to 'protect' me. Stupid isn't it? I've lived alone for over 5 years and I'm still like this. And there is of course the nightmares.
So my question is, does anyone have any ideas of how to lower hypervigilence when going to bed? Please don't move this thread to the sleep forum because I really need some answers, I'm actually doing over my room so the room is going to be very 'new' and uncomfortable to me, and I was hoping with a proper bed and more peaceful design I can have better rest for the first time in my life.