Yes, this all does sound psychological. And it sounds pretty normal considering all that you've been through. I don't just mean with the ex, either. I think the thing with the ex just really put a big topping on the cake, but there has been other abuse in your life, hasn't there? Granted, not nearly as severe as the ex, but it's there. I think all of this together makes for a severe episode, which is lingering everywhere in your life right now.

Hang in there. We're all here for you.