Quote:
Originally Posted by clouds_and_sun
I have never cut myself before, I have hit myself during nervous breakdowns, I have abused sleep aids before, a lot.
Yesterday I found out that plucking hairs is a way to cope with issues. So just now I tried it, plucking the tiny hairs on my upper lip. I did it cause I am feeling at the bottom of the pit now, I just got rejected again today, I have been rejected and bullied so much over the last few days more than I have ever in my life.  I hate myself, I can't even look in the mirror at my full reflection, I just cant.
So, I have one of those small compact mirrors to look at my upper lip and I plucked a few hairs, suprisingly it helped a little with my depressed feeling, the stinging feeling and all. I have never plucked cause I was so depressed, abuse the sleep aids maybe, but never this. I am new to this. I just don't know anymore how to deal with this pain of self hate that I am feeling 
I feel so worthless, I just had to find a way out, a way to deal with the self hate that I am feeling. I feel that I am on this earth to be a reject, maybe plucking is the answer to this hurt, I don't know, I just don't know anymore |
I'm sorry you got rejected.
For plucking the hairs - have you looked into getting a hair removal product, like a cream? Or going to a salon place and getting a wax done? At the very least, it will prevent you from having anything to pluck for a while. The problem with plucking hairs is that they can grow back but get infected and 'ingrown'. That's not good!
What have you done to help yourself cope, in a positive way? Do you have any healthy coping strategies, or someone to talk to?
