I was popular in high school, but my mental health,drug use,relocation and misdiagnosis have had a severe impact on my ability to socialize and make friend. Up until 3 years ago when i was using drugs there was obviously no need to have much in common with the people i asscociated with. i have noticed through fb and other social media that nearly all of the people i went to school with have stayed close knit, i spose in a way being messed up on drugs i laughed at this and saw it as childish and i was already on my way to blocking past friends from my life and making sure they wouldnt return. in some ways i dont regret what i have done but on the other hand being a reformed drug user it is sooo hard for me to make new friends, because of my back injury i cant play sport and i think that would be the easiest way. the pub and club scene is a joke and does not interest me. and i found people at a church very annoying.
my wife is very supportive and keeps telling me im paranoid when i make assumptions of how people see me and wether they enjoy my company.
im taking the attitude thats theres no rush, ive only been seperated from the drug crowd three years and i cant expect to just become the person i was a decade ago in a click of the finger.
my problem is plain paranoia lol
but im working on it with the support of my caring wife