I'm in a place at the min that feels really horrible, its like everything is spinning and that im rocking forward and backward but im just sat still. i cant feel a thing. i got told by my brother that my uncle died and i wanted to cry but i found it hard to and i really dont know how to process this. im not good with grief, i just run and pretend its not true. i am feeling all kinds of emotions but i cant express them properly, so i hurt people and loose them aswell. it hurts, it really hurts but i cant feel it that much and i think because i cant feel it, it is setting other emotions off that i dont need right now. I'm so confused

what can i do?