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Originally Posted by Distressed2010
Thank You leed, I really needed to hear this 
I also had told my entire family after i confronted him, and their responses wierded me out as well (wrote about that in my other posts).
i guess I compare myself to my peers because I really really wish I had a different life, a different childhood, then I'd have a different outcome. I'd be naturally positive and a hard worker. Now, even if i want to work hard on something I like, the thoughts of past come back... can't focus.
I had also expected a very different outcome for me at this age. When I was 20, I was very depressed but didn't know it, but i was very optimistic about the future and thought by the time I'm in my late 20s,I'll have a splendid career, a husband, career, friends, and a home. Yeah. BIG disappointment. Instead I found out, I have none of that but definitelyI've got TONS of problems, all thanks to my childhood. For the longest time I didn't even know I had had a bad childhood. I thought what I had was just normal! Feel like I just skipped 15 years of life for real. |
I felt that way, too, when I was younger. Spent 15 years with hubby #1, ten with #2 and now almost 13 with #3. I think all of my trials and troubles with #1 and #2 were preparing to be ready for #3 and to appreciate him. I wouldn't have looked at him as a suitable mate when I was younger--now I think of him as my "soul mate."
Life is a very long journey, if we are lucky, and when you are older you won't just evaluate the worth of your life in terms of posessions and relationships. You will look at the wiseness and strength you have developed as a person and the way you have learned to lead your life according to your values. I know you can't replace your lost childhood, but I suspect it has given you a wisdom beyond your years which will serve you very well now and in the future. You have shown strength in confronting your issues that I wish I had! Hope your life pleases you more with each passing day!
