I know you posted this a few days ago and I know you changed your mind and will stay, and (yes 3 and's lol) I know I haven't been around much, but you've already struck me as one of the people who is very caring and tries to help others out and put a smile on their face... clearly, you mean a lot to everyone on here and I just wanted to add that the whole guilt thing, taking and not being able to give back as much, is difficult but as people have said, friendship is not just about being there in the good times but also during the bad... and when you need picking up, your friends are there for you.. no conditions attached. you give back anyways and have given back so much (purely judging from the # of posts) that you have nothing to feel bad about. glad you're staying!!!!