Hi Sleeps,

I'm sorry it's a hard time and you're missing T. My counselor says that whatever feelings you have tend to get more intense at the holidays....and you feel them more deeply. If you're feeling lonely, you can feel more lonely at the holidays. If you've been feeling depressed, that depression can feel even more intense....and so forth. He also thinks it applies to positive feelings. At least in my experience, that has been true. Do you think that could have anything to do with it, and you might be missing T even more with all of the holidays right now? My counselor is away on a long vacation for the holidays, and I know I'm missing him, and this is sure a bad time of year for me. I'll be looking forward to seeing him when he gets back.

In the meantime, are there any other ways of being in contact with your T? Are you allowed to email him, for instance? I know that's not the same, but if that is okay with your T, that might be a way to be in touch even though you can't meet right now. You could also write a letter to your T on paper. Sometimes that helps me too, and I can imagine meeting with my counselor even when we can't meet in person. Of course, it's not the same, but I can write down some thoughts and feelings and save it for him, for the next time we meet, and sort of imagine having a meeting with him. Sometimes that helps me a bit.

But still, I hear you, it's hard, and I send you caring thoughts. Take good care of yourself....

Take care,
ErinBear