Hello, Tamika. The shame you describe likely will get worse if not dealt with. For whatever reason, you are not giving yourself the love you deserve.

Please consider talking to someone at student health. My suggestion is for you to print your post for the one you see. Getting help is not a weakness. Yes, it will be scary. Getting better will not be easy. I hope you will believe getting better is possible and that you are worthy of a more meaningful life of YOUR choosing.

Good luck.