Hello Tamika,

I'm glad you're here and decided to talk about the things that are bothering you and how you feel. There are is a lot of very supportive people at PC that you can talk to.
Before I go any further, in reading your post, one thing crossed my mind that is probably the first thing I should ask you about. It might seem like a rather odd thing to ask you, but there is a very good reason for it. My questions is, are you Asian ?
You exhibit certain characteristics that are common to people who are brought up in an Asian culture... which has bearing on your mindset.