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Originally Posted by MoAnamCara
I know this is what I need to do but recent efforts have resulted in me shutting down and experiencing unpleasant flashbacks etc.
I just don't feel I can deal with these things at this time even though I would like to so I can try to put it al behind me.
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Is your therapist aware that you are shutting down and the flashbacks are increasing?
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Originally Posted by MoAnamCara
at this time being intimate freaks me out, thoughts and pains rush me.
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It is okay to not be intimate if you aren't ready.
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Originally Posted by MoAnamCara
how do others not see that i am struggling? why cant i just scream and let everyone know? why cant i be honest for once, tear down the defences and the curtain of strength and mask of happiness and of being in complete control?
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Any new thoughts on this?
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Originally Posted by MoAnamCara
i hate my inability to forget, move on, be strong. just over it.
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THis is impossible. You have to work through this stuff.