CSC, now is the time to build that wonderful person that you ARE. His lies belong to him. They do not belong to you. I can understand how and why you feel the way you do from his words and actions. It makes so much sense why you are feeling the way that you do. Can you give his lies back to him in some sort of ritual? Not erasing but some sort of giving them back to him. Can you write them down and mail them back to him or dig a whole near his house and put them there where they are close to him?