I don't know exactly what is causing it, but I have been dealing with a lot in my relationship with my husband. I am just really confused about the whole thing.

I think I am a little hypomanic/mixed and I am trying to hide it because I don't want to worry anyone since we are going on vacation in less than two weeks. I don't really have anything to pack for vacation because I have put on so much weight since last summer that I don't fit into anything. I went out the other day to shop and was shocked at how ugly everything looked on me. I am going to try again at another store for plus sizes, but it is so expensive to shop there.

I actually can't take Klonopin because when I was on it a couple of years ago, I had an opposite reaction and I was in such a state that I ended up in the hospital. My pdoc and I assume the same thing would happen with any benzo, so we stay away from them.

I do feel better today, and usually breathing does help. I also take 25mg of Seroquel on an as needed basis, but I only can do that once a day so I never know when to take it. I am in close contact with T also.