Honestly, I've thought of that a million times. I have no idea how to fix this. I mean, I know I should tell my parents what I want and tell my sisters, but I don't want to. I don't know if I'm just afraid or scared of what they'll say or if I'm afraid of change. You see, when I did talk once, the reply I got was depressing. I didn't like the way someone I knew thought of people or treated them, and when I tried to confront that person, it turned on me. It became my fault, like my insufficient understanding of people, my tendency to trust new people too much, my naivety. I was so shocked, I didn't know what to say. I don't want that again. I've avoided talking about my feelings for way too long, it's natural now. When I tried to tell my parents that I'm not happy with architecture and that I want to study nnutrition or environmental science , they agreed that I should do what I want and that made me happy. But they can't let me study abroad because then my sisters would want the same (and I think they don't want people to talk) and they think that studying architecture would help our family and make them proud. So now I'm stuck with it, and I don't know what to do. I've changed so much. I used to be this cheerful person; I loved to exercise, bake, go out, talk. Now, I can't seem to find enough energy for me to wake up in the morning. If I didn't have any duties, I would sit in bed the whole day. So how am I supposed to fix that?