I know it's been awhile since I've been on here, but I felt that it would be good for me to get back into the habit of writing out my thoughts and feelings. My birthday was last Tuesday, and it would have been wonderful except that I was sick for most of it. Basically, I haven't been feeling well for the past week, which has definitely taken a toll on my emotional well-being. Furthermore, the stress of the curriculum I am in is starting to hit me, after all these months, as well as the problems of being in a foreign country, and not knowing the language very well. I went out with my friends to celebrate my birthday, which is something I very rarely do, and with good reason - I think I must have drank more than I've ever drank before, and I ended up sick outside on the pavement. Luckily, since I expelled most of it that night (sorry, I'm trying not to be disgusting in my rendition), my hangover was minimal, but the depression I've had recently was worse. I feel like I humiliated myself that night, that I lost control, and that whatever I did will be on YouTube soon, if it isn't already. Admitted, I am paranoid, but I really regret having done that. Furthermore, I really am homesick, I miss being somewhere where I understand the systems and ways of doing things, I miss being with my friends and family. I also feel that I can't do anything right in this program - I feel that no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try and how much effort I put into it, it's never enough. I can't keep this up, I need to rest and recover. My midterm break is in two weeks, which, I feel, is not nearly soon enough. Does anyone have any advice on coping with depression, homesickness, exhaustion and not feeling physically well, all in one? Thanks