Nah. Don't worry. I have times that I like to get my episodes of ileitis- a very painful I testinal infection which lands me in the hospital- becaus time stops. I get better. People watch over me.

As for bipolar, it is so consuming sometimes that I can't help but give in. Just a few days ago I had a psychotic episode and thoroughly enjoyed it! Now I want help bu don't want antipsychotics. My pdoc is probably annoyed with me for that. So what do I do?