You are NOT disgusting!!!!
you are brave for talking about your feelings.

What you have is an illness.
i think we get so caught up in trying to be normal....whatever that means...You were only recently diagnosed so this is all new for you...take it easy on yourself!

i've been diagnosed with depression since i'm 12, bipolar since my 30s....some of us are just more used to it than others....it doesn't make it easier, we've just done it more often.

Sometimes the thoughts of a few extra pills....a longer sleep, feeling numb to escape the pain....Not a complete OD but just a break from the reality of my daily nightmarish existance would be lovely....and I was thinking i would mention that to My T this week....so you are not alone in the way you think at all.