Hi. Hope you all had a nice New Year. mmm.... sorry but i've got to ask your advice again, i feel really bad for talking about me all the time, if i could offer any of the other posts replies i would but i doubt i'd be any use to anyone at the moment - i'm too confused myself. Anyway, my sister has been really great to me - she's 2 yrs older by the way, 20yrs old - and she's brought up the fact that i may be depressed by herself and wants me to go to the doctors again. I don't know, it was sooo awful last time and they told me to come back in a few months and i don't want to waste their time and make a fool out of myself again. My sister said she'd come with me and was really angry with how they treated me last time but i'm soo unsure. What if i'm being silly. I mean sometimes i'm fine and i may be exagerating all the other stuff. I'm confused. I want help but i don't think i will ever be able to convince anyone because i don't talk about myself that much (may surprise you!!). I'm scared. What if i'm being silly?? My sister has told me to think it over and said she'd book it and everything but....... i don't know. I know you can't make me go or not go but i do value your help. You've all been so nice to me in the last few weeks (seems like forever!). What do you think? And if i do go, how do i talk to this doctor without clamming up - i don't want her to read my diary straight off i wouldn't trust her - not after last time! (i will go to a different one though.) Please tell me what you think i should do. Thank you Abby.