Hi, everyone. I often read through threads on this board, but I rarely post...

For the past several years, I have experienced extreme fluctuations in my mood, several times a day. I can switch from feeling pure elation, with a heightened sense of self-worth, to feeling as if I am a complete failure, and it wouldn't matter even if I had been successful, because life overall is so pointless. I had a period of about 1.25 years during which I felt mostly depressed. I still had my "high-on-life" moments, but I believed them to be the result of fantasy, unconnected to anything substantial.

The constant low mood has recently lifted, but I noticed that my daily fluctuations are getting more intense. My lows now sometimes have the power to render me motionless; I have to sleep to escape the pain and meaninglessness. Then, I wake up and the world is beautiful. I've never experimented with illegal drugs, but my high moods are what I imagine I would feel if I did heroin. *Everything* is going to okay, better than okay...

In addition to the increased intensity, my moods are lasting for longer durations. I had nearly two days of euphoria last week; this is the longest I've ever felt like that.

People with rapid/ultradian cycling bipolar II, can you relate to this? I have started seeing a therapist for these issues, and I want to know if rapid cycling bipolar/ cyclothymia is something that I should bring up with him. I've posted something similar to this post in the borderline forum earlier; now I want a prospective from someone who is bipolar, as I have realized that I do not have many of the social symptoms of borderline pd. Thanks for reading and responding; have an excellent day!