I'm really fed up with my mom asking me none stop if I date somebody or when I get married and give me speech....I really don't want to talk to her at all....This is too much....
She doesn't stop it....It's not like I don't want to....I just can't find anybody....Doesn't she get it? I have so much stress over finding a partner, then she stir it up and give me more stress.....what the heck? It's unbelievable....
She wants to hook me up with her friend's son in Vancouver....I told her NO....I live in US and I'm not moving to Vancouver....She doesn't see that I have a good job and I don't need a guy....If I want a guy, it's just for companionship....I'm not going to change my life for a guy....then she said...He will come and live in US....I said WHAT? he's 40 years old...hopefully he has a job and a life of his own, he wants to change his life like this for somebody he hasn't seen....of course, it's my mom and probably his mom planning all these....
Then she got mad at me and she said she doesn't know anybody else....I said if you know somebody here in LA, then introduce him to me, not somebody in another country....
I'm so mad right now....I'm mostly mad at myself for being this much clumsy not being able to find a partner for myself, then my mom and my sister keep teasing me and bugging me for that.....I know if even I get married, they won't be happy, they will keep asking me when I get pregnant.....it's always something....
I don't want to be with somebody just to not be single.....I want a guy in my life to understand me, to love me....I don't want to settle just to make my mom happy....
I hope this is her last time to get into my life.....
Marjan