I feel like I'm intruding here! But I don't know what to do...I would like to ask, in the most respectful and appropriate way I can, for some advice from anyone living with autism. I just scored 36 on the Autism Quotient Test. I went there on a hunch after I noticed a lot of similarities between me and a book character living with an autism spectrum disorder.

I'm afraid to talk to anyone about this, because I'm scared of it being true. And why was I never tested for autism? Why didn't I ever put two and two together?

I could be wrong, right? 36 out of 50...that's not like 45 out of 50. That's not like, indisputable proof.

But suddenly a lot of things add up...I'm way behind my friends in the relationship department, and I just now want to look for a romantic relationship with a man and I'm in my mid-20s. But things have to be a certain way, and sometimes I panic for no reason. I don't like to be touched, but I want to be touched...this doesn't make sense...ok, I want to have intimacy, but it makes my skin crawl when a guy touches me or comes too close and when I feel like I'm not in control of what's happening. I know this isn't normal. I've never had that right response to a guy who's wanted me. Autism or not, what do I do? When I find that person I'm actually attracted to, will it still hurt when they try to touch me or make me panic when they come into my space? I don't want to be alone forever.