Thank you. The main problem here is that I'm so sick that I can't sleep so I can't show up for friendships or relationships or committments of any kind. I'm wiped out and so full of fear when exhausted that I can't even shower or get to the store for food. I feel completely stuck and dependent on my parents, who just can't hear me. I probably need to pack my things and go to a shelter where I can start over on my own - it's all I can afford or think to do. Today I want to kill myself because I don't see a way out.