Agree with sugahorse, sounds like you have a lot of stressors going on. I "KNOW" the anxiety when your soon to go on vacation and nothing fits, and you go shopping and UGGGGG. Been right there befor and I cried for days! Sending positive thoughts your way, and hope the second shopping trip goes better. I know I ended buying things that were way larger than I thought I should wear and came right home and cut all the tags off so it didnt remind me of the "size". Best wishes - and hugs