Hi Woman Healing... I'm so sorry you've got all these issues... I wish there was some way you could get out of that toxic environment. I know that giving you advice won't help, because you already know what you need to do, you just don't have the energy to do it. I knew what I needed to do for months last year, but couldn't do it till the psychiatrist got a short term team organised to help me. What I would have done without the short term intervention team, I don't know. Are there no patient advocacy groups near where you live? If you can't organise it yourself, perhaps your father might... though I understand he's also oppressed by the whole family system.

Keep coming to this website though, there are online group therapies organised in chat. I've already been helped by one such group, and I've not been here terribly long. There's always someone who wants to help you.

Remember that you did start to recover, before that disastrous relationship knocked you back. You have it in you to go forward again, but with more wisdom, perhaps, as to some of the pitfalls.

Look after yourself.