I have 2 situations that are really bugging me right now. I need somebody's help, support, whatever.

My bf wants to spend the weekend at our friend's house. We're supposed to be there for New Year's for a party. The only problem is I can't possibly stay for that long! You see I have this problem with being around people for an extended period of time. I know a weekend doesn't sound like an extended period of time to most people, but it is to me. The longer I'm around people the more agitated and uncomfortable I become. I tried to talk to my bf about this, but he is not being supportive at all about this. He said he'd be there and I wouldn't have to worry. He said it's the only male friends we have and that we barely get out at all and that we need it. He said I could hang out with the girls and all that.

Yeah, that sounds all fine and dandy...to someone who doesn't have severe anxiety problems and is a people person and all that. But I'm not. The last time we stayed there I started to freak out a little. I didn't let it show, but I don't want to feel like that again!

Do I tell him I'm not going? I don't know. I'd like to tell him that. He made the point that I'm gonna be around over 30 people next week. Yeah, I'm having a baby shower for my sister and it's only gonna be a couple of hours. I can leave when I want to. But this is totally different. When we go, I can't leave. Our friends live about a half hour away and they're my ride. So I'd be stuck.

That's the first issue. The second issue is around driving. You see my bf wants me to get my driver's license this year. That sounds good and will be very hard for me to do. As soon as I get my license he wants to move a half hour away to his dad's cabin. It sounds nice, the bills would be less, we'd be closer to shopping centers and all that, but there are actually 2 problems with this one. (1) I'd be moving away from my dad, who I dearly love and I cannot leave him. He's all I really have since my mom died almost 2 years ago. (2) The cabin is located in an area where I was severely abused by another bf. I cannot just go back there so easily.

Both these causes great fear in me. It's like I'm being pulled in so many directions right now. I don't know what to do, and if I do anything, how will I do it? I'm so terrified right now.