Thanks again, TheMisunderstoodOne. I sent the email message with my break up question as I mentioned above, to my bf. i chickened out about calling him and saying it. I definately still have feelings for him and i love him. I just wanted him to know how I felt and telling him with a clear purpose I feel I might get results if he sees he could lose me. or the other result would be for him to dump me which im ok with too. just i need something to give. either way i just hope things get solved. and im trying to be courageous but its hard. oh well thats life. whatever is meant to b will happen. anyways thanks for listening. how are you doing with the concerns that u had earlier in this thread? and how is school going?