I have been quite depressed for a while now. My GP has signed me off work for a few weeks because she felt it wouldn't be fair if I said/did something whilst I was ill that caused me to lose my job. I know it was a good decision that we made together but I feel I've been left in no-mans land. I've never had space before, I've always just pushed and pushed myself because there hasn't been any other choice. I thought the space would help me feel better but it's not, if anything I feel more confused and lost.

My therapist has been supportive during all of this but I think I'm feeling really angry at her. I am grateful that everyone is trying to help me but it is as though noone has thought about how the space may effect me negatively. I literally do not know what to do with myself...I have no energy to interact with anyone (including family) so I'm just staying in bed sleeping away time. At the moment I don't see how this is helpful. I know I *should* get up and do something but I've lost the will power to push myself. I'm not good at doing things if I don't *have* to do them.

Recently I've been trying to tell my therapist about the pain and I know she hears me as she has advised I go to the GP etc...but I feel lost. I feel everything is black right now. I don't really want to go back for another session and talk about the same thing I've been saying over and over for 2yrs.

I'm not sure what I'm saying, or if this is even the right sub-forum. I can't seem to find my words.