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Originally Posted by codeWeasel
Everything else in your post, in my mind, is nothing new. I am not diminishing it in anyway, it is no doubt intense and hard and unpleasent. We all have these kinds of issues to deal with, and given time we do learn how to, to a greater or lessor extent.
The statement highlighted above however concerns me. Ridicule by family is a common enough theme around these parts (sad by true, my father flat refuses to believe that I have a problem), but your trust in your treatment team needs to be absolute. This trust takes time to develop, but never forget, they work for you!
If you have worked with someone for a while and you just don't feel you can trust them, fire them! Of course you need to discuss your concerns with them first, and more likely than not, your fears can be resolved. Simply put, you need to be able to discuss anything in your life that is on your mind. For many years I was caught in the trap of feeling like I couldn't change docs. Once I did, I was sorry I waited so long.
I will chime in with the others. Very brave posting. Thanks for sharing.
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I think it is more of a fear of disappointing them or having them question me about the truthfulness of everything. I trust my T with my life as he has been responsible for saving it at least twice. I like my p-doc because she listens to me and lets me help in making decisions, but I have been with her for less than a year, so I am still getting to know her.
I switched from a p-doc who did ridicule me everytime I went for my appointment. I think she was trying to make me sicker and I was starting to get paranoid because of her. When I requested my records and notes so that I could bring them to my new doc, I read them and there were all sorts of things in there that made me sound like a terrible person and a difficult patient. I try so hard to not be difficult and there she was calling me difficult. I don't want my new p-doc to get her impression from these notes and then form the opinion that I am difficult, so I put my best face on. I tell the truth about when I don't feel well, but I don't think I let on how badly I feel.
I have kind of chickened out on calling my T today, though, because I reread the thread and I am just out of my mind. I don't want to deal with that over the phone and I go in to see him tomorrow morning.