(((((inbloom))))))

You are not rejected here. I know it's easy sometimes to look at posts and responses/lack of responses and make assumptions like that. I've done it too. But it's not reality.

Coming here to find connection is not lame.

I also know how painful that must feel for your T to constantly push you to build outside support.

My oldT used to phrase it differently, which helped me...she'd say "It is perfectly OK for you to need me and reach out to me and lean on me for support, and ALSO I want you to experience that support outside of my office. I want you to enjoy every measure of love and support that the world has to offer you."

And I realized I wanted that too, I just didn't know how to do it, and so we broke it down into steps that felt safe to me.

Now, honestly, I'm relearning because I moved away from OldT and all the friends I learned to lean on for support. I have to start over, but it feels a little easier this time because I've had some practice.

I wonder if you can ask your T for specific suggestions...baby steps you can take.

Personally, I see posting this as a big step in reaching out. You're doing it.