OMG I feel just like u well said.I feel like I can't breath and am suffucating..I feel like I'm drowning and I make it just high enough to get one breath then back down, like I have weights attached to my ankles it hurts soo much I'm sick of all this pain.No one understands and at times I feel that even my psychiatrist can't understand..Experience trumps knowledge in my book!! I have a hard time starting conversation with my psychiatrist during psychotherapy so I write words down and give it to him so he can pick and choose what to talk about. This may help u ??