Hello, I think I can relate to thinking about your T all the time. For me I think it was that my relationship with her was like anyone else.

One thing may be that you are obviously wanting to get better, or you wouldn't be there, that was very exciting for me, and I too sometimes questioned my T's way of getting me to where I needed to be, and would resist a bit. Just know that he/she wants you to succeed, and don't be afraid to talk to him/her about the feelings you're telling us about. It's their desire to see you get through this, and I'm sure that what you're feeling isn't something he/she has never seen before. Take care, good luck. Hope this helps.