((((rainbow)))) It's OK to grieve for your mother.....it's also OK to grieve because T can only be T and not your mother in real life. Reality is hard, yes; it hurts, yes. And it's OK to grieve that, too.
Today, something happened that hasn't happened to me before, a feeling of jealousy or something.....as the client ahead of me was going out her door, my T said to her 'I'll be thinking of you a lot this week'. And I thought for a split second, but you've never said that to me in front of some other client as I'm leaving! And it was a brief flash of realizing my T is 'my T' to others too......a little reminder that others have their therapeutic connections with her too, and that I'm only one of many on her mind in the week. It's reality and I accept it as it is.....but not without a poignant pang of grief/sorrow for it being that way.
So it's OK to grieve.....