So sorry to hear you are feeling so alone and so anxious. I have heard that sometimes we get nervous or anxious when it is the anniversary of a tragic event, even if we are not consciously aware of the anniversary! That's pretty powerful stuff...so, if you are conscious of the date and thinking about it...understandable to be upset. Sorry everyone is blowing you off. What type of help are you needing? Just someone to talk to? We're here!