Thanks again BlackPup and good luck to you too with your thesis. Crunch time hey.

Suicidal thoughts are pretty constant for me. Hardly a day goes by that I don't have some imaging of it happening one way or another. I don't think I would act on the thoughts because of how painful it has been for me to have lost my own mum to it. I would never do that to my son. It would be nice to be free of the thoughts. Sometimes they come out of the blue and I just cringe at the image until I can shake it off. I am really happy for you that the lithium took those thoughts away. That has to be a huge relief. They can be so haunting sometimes.

Yes I do have my thyroid levels checked regularly but probably not as often as I will need to if lithium is added to the mix. Initially anyways as you say. I am not sure if it is related to taking the limictal but my last results indicated a need to increase the med for my thyroid. Came as a bit of a surprise because over the last year or so we have been lowering the dose.

At one point I was being over medicated until a new GP figured it out. And people wonder why I have trust issues with doctors. The over medicating caused me (though no one made the connection at the time DAH!!) to loose way more weight then I can afford and way too fast to be healthy. An ideal weight for me would be around 130-135. I was down to 105 before it was determined my dose was too high. Once they got it right the weight came back on so fast I could see and feel a difference within days. I have since regained the weight and I feel like myself again with a few extra pounds thrown on for good measure. I had always been a little bit 'chubby' while my sister was very slim. I always envied her but not anymore. I didn't like being skinny one tiny little bit. I will never envy a skinny person again. I like my little bit of chub. I feel healthier.

I wonder now if maybe the reason for the need to increase the dose has something to do with taking limictal and seroquel the last few months or so. I have since dropped the seroquel. It lost its effectiveness and the side effects were too uncomfortable. It has me wondering if there might be a link.