You're right. You will make this work, kdd. Like you said, you made the decision while stable and along with your wife. Best way to do that, in that you can know you made the decision from a good place. Practical and rational, even though difficult.

If it is of any use to you... The only thing that worked for me in a similar reverse situation (in the midst of massive depression, misdiagnosis, mismedication and instability among other harsh realities...ugh)? One step at a time. A day. An hour. A minute. A step. If you can look further ahead, great! Do it! If not, it's totally ok to take it in the smallest increments needed to get through.

Sorry you have having such a rough go... Have you been able to have your old Pdoc keep you in your prescriptions while you find a new Pdoc?

Hope you get that option on the other job within the company! Keep us posted, ok?