Oh puddles, I feel for you so much. It breaks my heart to read that. I have begged for help before at my wit's end and felt rejected and uncared for as well. So, I know how you feel. People can be so cruel. I don't know if it's cause they don't know how to deal with it, but I bet if a friend had a problem you or I didn't know how to deal with we wouldn't turn our backs on them. Some people are just rude and cruel and lack compassion. It's sad, really. I'm sorry you are feeling like no one cares and I'm sorry people have treated you that way. I want you to know that you matter and deserve help, kindness and someone to listen to you. Sometimes, when people treat us like we don't deserve that, it hurts so much we start to believe it. I hope you don't believe that. Just know that because some people can be cruel and heartless it is no reflection on you or your worth. It is a reflection on them. A bad reflection. I believe you need professional help and I hope you can get it. Many people here will talk to you and listen, including myself, but you still need professional help. It is very disheartening to read that you are also getting no help from agencies. Are you referring to agencies that would help you with your mental health? Does anyone here know what she can do to get some help?