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background on me: i'm in my twenties, living at home with my two parents, and have treatment-resistant depression. i've been trying different treatments (mostly meds) for five years now.
i can't work and don't have any income. i have insurance through the state i live in. i first started seeing my doctor when i was at college, which is in a different state from where i am living now. the big problem is that my doctor doesn't work with the county in which my state insurance is handled. the problem now is that my parents have decided they won't pay for me to see my doctor.
i'm not a trusting person and am very closed off. you see, it took me two years to open up to my best friend at college, and i saw her almost every day. i've been with my doc now for three years, which is surprising to me. but i like her and trust her. only thing is that to see her, it is a 6 hour drive one-way. so i only go once every two months.
i just sent her office a letter. there is one last way i can get my doc visits paid for by my state insurance. that would mean that my doc's office would have to enroll and do paperwork to become a provider of my state.
and if they don't, i'm screwed. this is my last shot! my parents keep telling me that i need to change doctors. what they don't realize is that i can't! it would take me at least a year to find another doctor i could trust and open up to. i don't have the strength or energy to go thru all that crap again. and providing i made it thru that without quitting or giving up, it would take another year for me to actually open up to them to the point where i am at right now with my current doc.
i'm also scared that if i can't see my doctor anymore, i'll just give up right then and there. stop trying and stop taking any meds and won't care about anything anymore. i'm already only hanging on by a thread. so i can't say how much i really really need this to work for me.
please, i would greatly appreciate any and all prayers.......
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