Innerzone, I am not sure if I'm on a cancellation list, I doubt it. I didn't ask to be on one when I made the appointment because at the time I felt OK.

I'm sure you're thinking "Well, can you call then and ask to be put on the cancellation list?" but the answer would probably be no. Phones scare me, and I don't want my pdoc to know I'm going through a tough time. At our last appointment, he was actually happy with me that I've been out of hospital and going to school, something that's hard for me to do.