Can we explore a little bit as to why we feel this way?

As a start, for me, it brings awareness of the reality that this closeness is a service that he's providing, that he's trained to provide, and it's difficult to swallow the imbalance.

It also makes me more aware of how incredibly sad I feel at the idea that I do not have a "safe" closeness in "real life" and that I've experienced so so so many unsafe relationsips, which seems so unfair.

There's much much more, but I'd like to get some input from others....

Thanks!!