I also understand being really angry at T and wanting/needing to express that. I do it ALL the time!! So, do that, express your anger....let her have it if you need to and then, take a breath, plant your feet on the ground, and write the poem to your mom....do what she says. When all is said and done, I always have to remind myself that I *truly* believe that my T has my best interest in mind. It sounds like you know this about your T too. She knows what she's doing. She cares about you. She wants to help. So, once you have vented and expressed what you need to express....try to breathe and just listen.....