Thank you. I think sometimes that I've been brainwashed by too many people to feel bad when I need a moment to myself. I used to be more self-preserving but people called me selfish and all my friends would go against me, yell at me, etc. Even my Dad has called me selfish before. I grew so tired of being "selfish" that I invested all too much into someone who was very unstable.
When I try to explain that because of said person I cannot do this or do that, becaue either it reminds me of them or it makes me anxious or I just can't put the energy, my friend will automatically snap to "forget about them", "put it in the past", and "don't let them effect you". It makes me believe I'm dwelling and I try not to do that.. but I suppose there is always going to be a domino effect.
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