No risk of me never replying to you again at all! I've come to love you too much for that.....and your pain is real and valid to me, and has touched my heart deeply. Everyone has their pain and everyone's pain/suffering is significant.....maybe nothing terrible happened to you, but that doesn't mean that you should feel you have no right to feel pain or that you shouldn't have pain or that something is wrong with you because you have pain. And even if nothing dramatically terrible did ever happen to you, that doesn't mean that there wasn't something wrong or missing in your relationships growing up, something that caused you damage, something that left a pattern of hurt in you.....
Improving, I think your T does love you, and I think she is not going to stop loving you.......I think she will see your pain, your need, and want to keep working with you to help you heal and grow and change.
I understand what you mean when you say, no love will ever be enough for me.....I feel this way too, that all the love given me doesn't feel like enough to ever heal all the hurt, take away the wounds, or fill up the huge huge need within me. Maybe one reason I want more children is that I think somewhere in me that having more children to love/more children to love me will fill that need, that space of longing.......but then, I know that won't be enough, and I wonder what will be enough. Anyway, I think I'm just wanting to say that it is OK to feel like no love will ever be enough.....but I am hoping that you will be able to look at the love you do have and find joy and healing in it.
I will be thinking of you tons.....