I have had some "double sessions" before--so about 2 hours. She should certainly have seen that you were struggling, since you were wise to mention the cutting desires. I am glad that she stayed with you so long! And it does sound like you and she have a good relationship, so I'm sure she WILL want to hear about any SUI thoughts should they reappear. I am so proud of you for getting through and hanging in here! But I know what it is to have SUI thoughts and it isn't anything to be ashamed off....They just happen, sometimes just chemically and/or because of stressful events. (Speaking of such, I wouldn't let your boyfriend pressure you. Okay?)