Before I saw my psychiatrist for the first time, I was exactly where you are. I thought the whole world was laughing at and judging me. I believed that I could not do anything right and offended everyone. I felt that I just wanted to disapear. They told me it was this beast called depression. Trust me, if you stay on your medications, work with a counselor, and work the problem you will see results over time. It is not going to be perfect, a quick fix, or a complete cure. There will probably be down days where you feel like giving up. You will need to fight it everyday. Over time it will get better. I am glad to hear you were able to get some relief with you psychiatrist. Hang in there we are here for you. Good luck and stay true to yourself.