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Originally Posted by Improving
these albums are my mother's version of my childhood, not my own understanding of it. So at times it's like looking at another little girl's life.
T will see what a horrible stupid fat disgusting little girl I was,
I'm not hers and she's not my mama- I had a whole other life and family. And it's just too sad.
I don't want T to see me. Which is strange because usually all I want is to feel truly seen by T.
the 'shame of being seen to be human', and I think this has been such a key feeling for me throughout my life.
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This ^ is something. It might not have come from an abusive family but something caused this.
I wasn't abused but I knew something was very wrong with my family. Years later I was able to piece together that my problems came from emotional neglect. Heck, I just had a FB conversation with one of my cousins and she had no clue to this day what it was like inside my family.
I think that your session can be very productive today. Good luck to you and I would love to come along too!