Intellecutally I understand, but as you quite rightly point out mu, its on the emotional level that some of us struggle. I think avout T having other clients as little as possible, when I do allow myself to think about it, it makes me feel so sad and full of envious rage. i don't deny these feelings in myself because if I do that I am denying a part of myself, why would I do that? And those that do do that will also deny those feelings in others, which some posts reflect.