I never had a problem with my old T having other clients. It was a strange relationship...I wasn't attached to her, yet we were very close. She was laid off from 3 different places and I followed her every time to the next one. I knew SO much about her life...she used to talk to her daughters therapist on the phone with me in the room (she knew it was ok with me because it was an emergency) and tell me about what was going in her life. I had this feeling that because I followed her to each of her new jobs, and knew so much about her...I was her favorite. I didn't have a problem with her having other clients.

But with my current T it is a different story. I've been seeing him for a little over a year and really didn't feel like I was REALLY seeing him until about 4 months ago. Some major things happened in my life and I became extrememly dependent on him. All of a sudden I hated that he had other clients. The practice he is at is on a main road that drive quite a lot, and his office is at the front of the building, so at night when it is dark out and the lights are on in his office, I can see him sitting in front of the window facing a client. I was like "Hey, that's how he sits with me!" I always knew he had other clients but never thought of them. Now I actually saw them!

Yesterday, I was going off about possibly having to stop therapy because of my insurance running out...and I didn't think he cared, I wanted him to tell me that he didn't want me to quit. So when I was finished with my rant he said, "I don't want you to leave, I want you to keep working. I look forward to seeing you and you are the reason I do this". And suddenly, I don't care much about his other clients